Woman and pain

Hubby has a sore throat and a cold coming on and so was in the kitchen this morning, making  rounds of  tulsi-adrak-pepper chai and khichdi,  when my cook smiled and said to me, "We women are different, no Amma? God has made us different with more himmat(courage) to bear pain and difficulties." She works a 17 hour day, in order to fulfill her dream of giving a quality education to her two children, and deals quite effectively with a headstrong, bullying husband. I wondered then, what really makes us women different? Is it because Nature has made pain such an inevitable part of our lives with menstruation and childbirth? And so we learn to live with it. Our experiences teach us that the worst of pain will pass, that it has a purpose to it, that it will leave a precious gift behind. Or else could it be that the world teaches us from an early age  to think of  pain as a woman's fate, to bear it and not make a fuss?

Sooraj and the killling of woman

Sooraj was made of woman's blood
it was mandatory there will be woman within
though no name was possible for this relationship
he could not escape it
he could feel even though he did not know
there was a woman within
with whom he had to live, grow

how to save a man from woman
the system for making men took up arms
In the very first lesson
he learnt how to kill woman

hey, don't cry, you are a boy
you have hair like a girl's, you sissy
your clothes are girly, ha ha
this pink colour..its for girls, silly

he learnt being woman is a curse
that's why brother says
straighten up or you'll be a woman in your next life

you have to protect your sister even though she's older
you are a man. Don't cry Sooraj. Its you who has to hold fort

the woman within him died for ever
killing woman, going on killing her is but an exercise
he became used to killing woman

he knew then the meaning of 'deserving of punishment'
after killing the woman within, Sooraj knows
whose turn it is next

The translation is mine- Rwitoja

भीतर-बाहर की स्‍त्री by MayaMrig
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स्‍त्री के रक्‍त से बना था सूरज
स्‍त्री का भीतर होना तय था
कि इस संबंध का कोई नाम संभव नहीं था
इस संबंध से बचा नहीं जा सकता, यह जानता भले ना हो
महसूस तो होता था....
भीतर थी कोई स्‍त्री
कि जिसके साथ पलना था, बढ़ना था....

स्‍त्री की संगत में कैसे बचेगा पुरुष...
पुरुष को पुरुष बनाने के लिए की गई
व्‍यवस्‍थाओं ने खींच लिए ....हथियार

कैसे मारा जाता है स्‍त्री को
यह पहले ही पाठ में पढ़ लिया उसने.....

लड़का होकर रोता है....सूरज...
छि...क्या लड़कियों जैसे बाल बना रखे हैं
ये क्या पहन लिया....
एकदम लड़की सा लगता है...
ये गुलाबी रंग.....हा हा .....लड़कियां पहनती हैं....

कि उसे पता था स्‍त्री हो जाना शाप है....
तभी तो भाई कहता है, ल
क्‍खन सुधार ले....अगले जनम में लड़की बनेगा नहीं तो....

तुझे ही तो बहन की रक्षा करनी है....चाहे बड़ी है तुमसे...
मर्द होकर रोता है सूरज........तुझे तो सबसे आगे रहना है....संभालना है सबको....

उसके भीतर की स्त्री मर गई....सदा के लिए
स्‍त्री को मारना...मारते चले जाना और.....मार डालना बस एक अभ्‍यास है....
वह आदी हो गया ....स्त्री को मारने का...

जान गया वह ताड़न की अधिकारी का अर्थ क्‍या है....
भीतर की स्‍त्री को मार डालने के बाद....अब बारी किसकी है....सूरज को ठीक से पता है.....

Love And Fear

There are only two energies at the core of the human experience: love and fear. Love grants freedom, fear takes it away.Love invites full expression, fear punishes it. Love invites you always, to break the bonds of ignorance.

Neale Walsch

Straighten Out Our Own Lives

“Participate joyfully in the sorrows of the world.
We cannot cure the world of sorrows,
But we can choose to live in joy.
When we talk about
Settling the world’s problems,
We are barking up the wrong tree.
The world is perfect. It’s a mess.
It has always been a mess.
We are not going to change it.
Our job is to straighten out
Our own lives.”
- Joseph Campbell TY LucY

When I started loving myself - Charlie Chaplin

When I started loving myself
I understood that I'm always and at any given opportunity
in the right place at the right time.
And I understood that all that happens is right –
from then on I could be calm.
Today I know: It's called TRUST.
When I started to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody
When I tried to force my desires on this person,
even though I knew the time is not right and the person was not ready for it,
and even though this person was me.
Today I know: It's called LETTING GO
When I started loving myself
I could recognize that emotional pain and grief
are just warnings for me to not live against my own truth.
Today I know: It's called AUTHENTICALLY BEING.
When I started loving myself
I stopped longing for another life
and could see that everything around me was a request to grow.
Today I know: It's called MATURITY.
When I started loving myself
I stopped depriving myself of my free time
and stopped sketching further magnificent projects for the future.
Today I only do what's fun and joy for me,
what I love and what makes my heart laugh,
in my own way and in my tempo.
Today I know: it's called HONESTY.
When I started loving myself
I escaped from all that wasn't healthy for me,
from dishes, people, things, situations
and from everything pulling me down and away from myself.
In the beginning I called it the "healthy egoism",
but today I know: it's called SELF-LOVE.
When I started loving myself
I stopped wanting to be always right
thus I've been less wrong.
Today I've recognized: it's called HUMBLENESS.
When I started loving myself
I refused to live further in the past
and worry about my future.
Now I live only at this moment where EVERYTHING takes place,
like this I live every day and I call it CONSCIOUSNESS.
When I started loving myself
I recognized, that my thinking
can make me miserable and sick.
When I requested for my heart forces,
my mind got an important partner.
Today I call this connection HEART WISDOM.
We do not need to fear further discussions,
conflicts and problems with ourselves and others
since even stars sometimes bang on each other
and create new worlds.
Today I know: THIS IS LIFE!
Charlie Chaplin {When I Started Loving Myself}